Normal everyday. Such everyday is boring. I have a stronger libido than anyone else. It's almost nasty. You don't just have to have sex. I want to be treated by someone. I want to be controlled by someone. I want to feel painful. I want to have a pain. And I want to do something embarrassing. The worse the treatment, the better. Such a delusion swells and controls all of me. I want to break my normal everyday life. As an M woman ...